第11章 THE TORN LETTER

I

I tore your letter into strips No bigger than the airy feathers That ducks preen out in changing weathers Upon the shifting ripple-tips.

II

In darkness on my bed alone I seemed to see you in a vision, And hear you say: "Why this derision Of one drawn to you, though unknown?"

III

Yes, eve's quick mood had run its course, The night had cooled my hasty madness;

I suffered a regretful sadness Which deepened into real remorse.

IV

I thought what pensive patient days A soul must know of grain so tender, How much of good must grace the sender Of such sweet words in such bright phrase.

V

Uprising then, as things unpriced I sought each fragment, patched and mended;

The midnight whitened ere I had ended And gathered words I had sacrificed.

VI

But some, alas, of those I threw Were past my search, destroyed for ever:

They were your name and place; and never Did I regain those clues to you.

VII

I learnt I had missed, by rash unheed, My track; that, so the Will decided, In life, death, we should be divided, And at the sense I ached indeed.

VIII

That ache for you, born long ago, Throbs on; I never could outgrow it.

What a revenge, did you but know it!

But that, thank God, you do not know.