第11章 CHAPTER IV(2)

"I wish I were--I wish I were anything but what I am.""And you can't make yourself any different, nor can I do it either. You must be content to stay just what you are."The little old woman said this--very firmly, but gently, too--with her arms round his neck and her lips on his forehead. It was the first time the boy had ever heard any one talk like this, and he looked up in surprise--but not in pain, for her sweet manner softened the hardness of her words.

"Now, my Prince,--for you are a prince, and must behave as such,--let us see what we can do; how much I can do for you, or show you how to do for yourself. Where is your traveling-cloak?"Prince Dolor blushed extremely. "I--I put it away in the cupboard; I suppose it is there still.""You have never used it; you dislike it?"

He hesitated, no; wishing to be impolite.

"Don't you think it's--just a little old and shabby for a prince?"The old woman laughed--long and loud, though very sweetly.

"Prince, indeed! Why, if all the princes in the world craved for it, they couldn't get it, unless I gave it them. Old and shabby! It's the most valuable thing imaginable! Very few ever have it; but I thought I would give it to you, because--because you are different from other people.""Am I?" said the Prince, and looked first with curiosity, then with a sort of anxiety, into his godmother's face, which was sad and grave, with slow tears beginning to steal down.

She touched his poor little legs. "These are not like those of other little boys.""Indeed!--my nurse never told me that."

"Very likely not. But it is time you were told; and I tell you, because I love you.""Tell me what, dear godmother?"

"That you will never be able to walk or run or jump or play--that your life will be quite different from most people's lives; but it may be a very happy life for all that. Do not be afraid.""I am not afraid," said the boy; but he turned very pale, and his lips began to quiver, though he did not actually cry--he was too old for that, and, perhaps, too proud.

Though not wholly comprehending, he began dimly to guess what his godmother meant. He had never seen any real live boys, but he had seen pictures of them running and jumping;which he had admired and tried hard to imitate but always failed. Now he began to understand why he failed, and that he always should fail--that, in fact, he was not like other little boys;and it was of no use his wishing to do as they did, and play as they played, even if he had had them to play with. His was a separate life, in which he must find out new work and new pleasures for himself.

The sense of THE INEVITABLE, as grown-up people call it--that we cannot have things as we want them to be, but as they are, and that we must learn to bear them and make the best of them--this lesson, which everybody has to learn soon or late--came, alas! sadly soon, to the poor boy. He fought against it for a while, and then, quite overcome, turned and sobbed bitterly in his godmother's arms.

She comforted him--I do not know how, except that love always comforts; and then she whispered to him, in her sweet, strong, cheerful voice: "Never mind!""No, I don't think I do mind--that is, I WON'Tmind," replied he, catching the courage of her tone and speaking like a man, though he was still such a mere boy.

"That is right, my Prince!--that is being like a prince. Now we know exactly where we are;let us put our shoulders to the wheel and----""We are in Hopeless Tower" (this was its name, if it had a name), "and there is no wheel to put our shoulders to," said the child sadly.

"You little matter-of-fact goose! Well for you that you have a godmother called----""What?" he eagerly asked.

"Stuff-and-nonsense."

"Stuff-and-nonsense! What a funny name!"