第21章 ON THE WEATHER.(3)
Poets think it very nice.As it does not know its own mind five minutes together,they liken it to a woman;and it is supposed to be very charming on that account.I don't appreciate it,myself.Such lightning-change business may be all very agreeable in a girl.It is no doubt highly delightful to have to do with a person who grins one moment about nothing at all,and snivels the next for precisely the same cause,and who then giggles,and then sulks,and who is rude,and affectionate,and bad-tempered,and jolly,and boisterous,and silent,and passionate,and cold,and stand-offish,and flopping,all in one minute (mind,I don't say this.It is those poets.And they are supposed to be connoisseurs of this sort of thing);but in the weather the disadvantages of the system are more apparent.A woman's tears do not make one wet,but the rain does;and her coldness does not lay the foundations of asthma and rheumatism,as the east wind is apt to.Ican prepare for and put up with a regularly bad day,but these ha'porth-of-all-sorts kind of days do not suit me.It aggravates me to see a bright blue sky above me when I am walking along wet through,and there is something so exasperating about the way the sun comes out smiling after a drenching shower,and seems to say:"Lord love you,you don't mean to say you're wet?Well,I am surprised.Why,it was only my fun."They don't give you time to open or shut your umbrella in an English April,especially if it is an "automaton"one--the umbrella,I mean,not the April.
I bought an "automaton"once in April,and I did have a time with it!
I wanted an umbrella,and I went into a shop in the Strand and told them so,and they said:
"Yes,sir.What sort of an umbrella would you like?"I said I should like one that would keep the rain off,and that would not allow itself to be left behind in a railway carriage.
"Try an 'automaton,'"said the shopman.
"What's an 'automaton'?"said I.
"Oh,it's a beautiful arrangement,"replied the man,with a touch of enthusiasm."It opens and shuts itself."I bought one and found that he was quite correct.It did open and shut itself.I had no control over it whatever.When it began to rain,which it did that season every alternate five minutes,I used to try and get the machine to open,but it would not budge;and then Iused to stand and struggle with the wretched thing,and shake it,and swear at it,while the rain poured down in torrents.Then the moment the rain ceased the absurd thing would go up suddenly with a jerk and would not come down again;and I had to walk about under a bright blue sky,with an umbrella over my head,wishing that it would come on to rain again,so that it might not seem that I was insane.
When it did shut it did so unexpectedly and knocked one's hat off.
I don't know why it should be so,but it is an undeniable fact that there is nothing makes a man look so supremely ridiculous as losing his hat.The feeling of helpless misery that shoots down one's back on suddenly becoming aware that one's head is bare is among the most bitter ills that flesh is heir to.And then there is the wild chase after it,accompanied by an excitable small dog,who thinks it is a game,and in the course of which you are certain to upset three or four innocent children--to say nothing of their mothers--butt a fat old gentleman on to the top of a perambulator,and carom off a ladies'seminary into the arms of a wet sweep.
After this,the idiotic hilarity of the spectators and the disreputable appearance of the hat when recovered appear but of minor importance.
Altogether,what between March winds,April showers,and the entire absence of May flowers,spring is not a success in cities.It is all very well in the country,as I have said,but in towns whose population is anything over ten thousand it most certainly ought to be abolished.In the world's grim workshops it is like the children--out of place.Neither shows to advantage amid the dust and din.It seems so sad to see the little dirt-grimed brats try to play in the noisy courts and muddy streets.Poor little uncared-for,unwanted human atoms,they are not children.Children are bright-eyed,chubby,and shy.These are dingy,screeching elves,their tiny faces seared and withered,their baby laughter cracked and hoarse.
The spring of life and the spring of the year were alike meant to be cradled in the green lap of nature.To us in the town spring brings but its cold winds and drizzling rains.We must seek it among the leafless woods and the brambly lanes,on the heathy moors and the great still hills,if we want to feel its joyous breath and hear its silent voices.There is a glorious freshness in the spring there.
The scurrying clouds,the open bleakness,the rushing wind,and the clear bright air thrill one with vague energies and hopes.Life,like the landscape around us,seems bigger,and wider,and freer--a rainbow road leading to unknown ends.Through the silvery rents that bar the sky we seem to catch a glimpse of the great hope and grandeur that lies around this little throbbing world,and a breath of its scent is wafted us on the wings of the wild March wind.
Strange thoughts we do not understand are stirring in our hearts.
Voices are calling us to some great effort,to some mighty work.But we do not comprehend their meaning yet,and the hidden echoes within us that would reply are struggling,inarticulate and dumb.
We stretch our hands like children to the light,seeking to grasp we know not what.Our thoughts,like the boys'thoughts in the Danish song,are very long,long thoughts,and very vague;we cannot see their end.
It must be so.All thoughts that peer outside this narrow world cannot be else than dim and shapeless.The thoughts that we can clearly grasp are very little thoughts--that two and two make four-that when we are hungry it is pleasant to eat--that honesty is the best policy;all greater thoughts are undefined and vast to our poor childish brains.We see but dimly through the mists that roll around our time-girt isle of life,and only hear the distant surging of the great sea beyond.