第6章 IN REMEMBRANCE OF JOHN INGERFIELD AND OF ANNE,HIS
So when John Ingerfield comes wooing,and speaks to her no word of love but only of money,she feels that here at last is a genuine voice that she can trust.Love of the lesser side of life is still left to her.It will be pleasant to be the wealthy mistress of a fine house,to give great receptions,to exchange the secret poverty of home for display and luxury.These things are offered to her on the very terms she would have suggested herself.Accompanied by love she would have refused them,knowing she could give none in return.
But a woman finds it one thing not to desire affection and another thing not to possess it.Day by day the atmosphere of the fine house in Bloomsbury grows cold and colder about her heart.Guests warm it at times for a few hours,then depart,leaving it chillier than before.
For her husband she attempts to feel indifference,but living creatures joined together cannot feel indifference for each other.
Even two dogs in a leash are compelled to think of one another.Aman and wife must love or hate,like or dislike,in degree as the bond connecting them is drawn tight or allowed to hang slack.By mutual desire their chains of wedlock have been fastened as loosely as respect for security will permit,with the happy consequence that her aversion to him does not obtrude itself beyond the limits of politeness.
Her part of the contract she faithfully fulfils,for the Singletons also have their code of honour.Her beauty,her tact,her charm,her influence,are devoted to his service--to the advancement of his position,the furtherance of his ambition.Doors that would otherwise remain closed she opens to him.Society,that would otherwise pass by with a sneer,sits round his table.His wishes and pleasures are hers.In all things she yields him wifely duty,seeks to render herself agreeable to him,suffers in silence his occasional caresses.Whatever was implied in the bargain,that she will perform to the letter.
He,on his side,likewise performs his part with businesslike conscientiousness--nay,seeing that the pleasing of her brings no personal gratification to himself--not without generosity.He is ever thoughtful of and deferential to her,awarding her at all times an unvarying courteousness that is none the less sincere for being studied.Her every expressed want is gratified,her every known distaste respected.Conscious of his presence being an oppression to her,he is even careful not to intrude it upon her oftener than is necessary.
At times he asks himself,somewhat pertinently,what he has gained by marriage--wonders whether this social race was quite the most interesting game he could have elected to occupy his leisure--wonders whether,after all,he would not have been happier over his counting-house than in these sumptuous,glittering rooms,where he always seems,and feels himself to be,the uninvited guest.
The only feeling that a closer intimacy has created in him for his wife is that of indulgent contempt.As there is no equality between man and woman,so there can be no respect.She is a different being.
He must either look up to her as superior to himself,or down upon her as inferior.When a man does the former he is more or less in love,and love to John Ingerfield is an unknown emotion.Her beauty,her charm,her social tact--even while he makes use of them for his own purposes,he despises as the weapons of a weak nature.
So in their big,cold mansion John Ingerfield and Anne,his wife,sit far apart,strangers to one another,neither desiring to know the other nearer.
About his business he never speaks to her,and she never questions him.To compensate for the slight shrinkage of time he is able to devote to it,he becomes more strict and exacting;grows a harsher master to his people,a sterner creditor,a greedier dealer,squeezing the uttermost out of every one,feverish to grow richer,so that he may spend more upon the game that day by day he finds more tiresome and uninteresting.
And the piled-up casks upon his wharves increase and multiply;and on the dirty river his ships and barges lie in ever-lengthening lines;and round his greasy cauldrons sweating,witch-like creatures swarm in ever-denser numbers,stirring oil and tallow into gold.
Until one summer,from its nest in the far East,there flutters westward a foul thing.Hovering over Limehouse suburb,seeing it crowded and unclean,liking its fetid smell,it settles down upon it.
Typhus is the creature's name.At first it lurks there unnoticed,battening upon the rich,rank food it finds around it,until,grown too big to hide longer,it boldly shows its hideous head,and the white face of Terror runs swiftly through alley and street,crying as it runs,forces itself into John Ingerfield's counting-house,and tells its tale.John Ingerfield sits for a while thinking.Then he mounts his horse and rides home at as hard a pace as the condition of the streets will allow.In the hall he meets Anne going out,and stops her.
"Don't come too near me,"he says quietly."Typhus fever has broken out at Limehouse,and they say one can communicate it,even without having it oneself.You had better leave London for a few weeks.Go down to your father's:I will come and fetch you when it is all over."He passes her,giving her a wide berth,and goes upstairs,where he remains for some minutes in conversation with his valet.Then,coming down,he remounts and rides off again.
After a little while Anne goes up into his room.His man is kneeling in the middle of the floor,packing a valise.
"Where are you to take it?"she asks.
"Down to the wharf,ma'am,"answers the man:"Mr.Ingerfield is going to be there for a day or two."Then Anne sits in the great empty drawing-room,and takes HER turn at thinking.