第35章 THE ISLET(1)

With my stepping ashore I began the most unhappy part of my adventures.It was half-past twelve in the morning,and though the wind was broken by the land,it was a cold night.I dared not sit down (for I thought I should have frozen),but took off my shoes and walked to and fro upon the sand,bare-foot,and beating my breast with infinite weariness.There was no sound of man or cattle;not a cock crew,though it was about the hour of their first waking;only the surf broke outside in the distance,which put me in mind of my perils and those of my friend.To walk by the sea at that hour of the morning,and in a place so desert-like and lonesome,struck me with a kind of fear.

As soon as the day began to break I put on my shoes and climbed a hill --the ruggedest scramble I ever undertook--falling,the whole way,between big blocks of granite,or leaping from one to another.When I got to the top the dawn was come.There was no sign of the brig,which must have lifted from the reef and sunk.

The boat,too,was nowhere to be seen.There was never a sail upon the ocean;and in what I could see of the land was neither house nor man.

I was afraid to think what had befallen my shipmates,and afraid to look longer at so empty a scene.What with my wet clothes and weariness,and my belly that now began to ache with hunger,I had enough to trouble me without that.So I set off eastward along the south coast,hoping to find a house where I might warm myself,and perhaps get news of those I had lost.And at the worst,I considered the sun would soon rise and dry my clothes.

After a little,my way was stopped by a creek or inlet of the sea,which seemed to run pretty deep into the land;and as I had no means to get across,I must needs change my direction to go about the end of it.It was still the roughest kind of walking;indeed the whole,not only of Earraid,but of the neighbouring part of Mull (which they call the Ross)is nothing but a jumble of granite rocks with heather in among.At first the creek kept narrowing as I had looked to see;but presently to my surprise it began to widen out again.At this I scratched my head,but had still no notion of the truth:until at last I came to a rising ground,and it burst upon me all in a moment that I was cast upon a little barren isle,and cut off on every side by the salt seas.

Instead of the sun rising to dry me,it came on to rain,with a thick mist;so that my case was lamentable.

I stood in the rain,and shivered,and wondered what to do,till it occurred to me that perhaps the creek was fordable.Back Iwent to the narrowest point and waded in.But not three yards from shore,I plumped in head over ears;and if ever I was heard of more,it was rather by God's grace than my own prudence.Iwas no wetter (for that could hardly be),but I was all the colder for this mishap;and having lost another hope was the more unhappy.

And now,all at once,the yard came in my head.What had carried me through the roost would surely serve me to cross this little quiet creek in safety.With that I set off,undaunted,across the top of the isle,to fetch and carry it back.It was a weary tramp in all ways,and if hope had not buoyed me up,I must have cast myself down and given up.Whether with the sea salt,or because I was growing fevered,I was distressed with thirst,and had to stop,as I went,and drink the peaty water out of the hags.

I came to the bay at last,more dead than alive;and at the first glance,I thought the yard was something farther out than when Ileft it.In I went,for the third time,into the sea.The sand was smooth and firm,and shelved gradually down,so that I could wade out till the water was almost to my neck and the little waves splashed into my face.But at that depth my feet began to leave me,and I durst venture in no farther.As for the yard,Isaw it bobbing very quietly some twenty feet beyond.

I had borne up well until this last disappointment;but at that Icame ashore,and flung myself down upon the sands and wept.

The time I spent upon the island is still so horrible a thought to me,that I must pass it lightly over.In all the books I have read of people cast away,they had either their pockets full of tools,or a chest of things would be thrown upon the beach along with them,as if on purpose.My case was very different.I had nothing in my pockets but money and Alan's silver button;and being inland bred,I was as much short of knowledge as of means.

I knew indeed that shell-fish were counted good to eat;and among the rocks of the isle I found a great plenty of limpets,which at first I could scarcely strike from their places,not knowing quickness to be needful.There were,besides,some of the little shells that we call buckies;I think periwinkle is the English name.Of these two I made my whole diet,devouring them cold and raw as I found them;and so hungry was I,that at first they seemed to me delicious.

Perhaps they were out of season,or perhaps there was something wrong in the sea about my island.But at least I had no sooner eaten my first meal than I was seized with giddiness and retching,and lay for a long time no better than dead.A second trial of the same food (indeed I had no other)did better with me,and revived my strength.But as long as I was on the island,I never knew what to expect when I had eaten;sometimes all was well,and sometimes I was thrown into a miserable sickness;nor could I ever distinguish what particular fish it was that hurt me.

All day it streamed rain;the island ran like a sop,there was no dry spot to be found;and when I lay down that night,between two boulders that made a kind of roof,my feet were in a bog.